i’m emo, so the soundtrack will be appropriate. someone wise said that creative writing is always inherently self-indulgent. i guess i’m being so today… with john waite, one of those power ballad type singers from the ’80s. all the cheesiness and self-serious and the hair, goddamn the hair. he’s one of those dudes who sorta [...]

Tag: pain
oh cupid, why have you forsaken me?
since this is going to be a sappy, cheesy, maybe even emo post… i think this post’s soundtrack will be a random’d mix of three albums. kanye west’s 808s and heartbreak, jason mraz’s we sing, we dance, we steal, and lily allen’s it’s not me, it’s you. yeah… it’s going to be one of those [...]
Tags: love, pain, philosophy, ruminations
the ex, missing limbs, asian am women
for various reasons, the soundtrack to this blogpost will be a selection of songs on a quicklist that i created in itunes on repeat. the first is the decemberists ‘the engine driver’. i love the decemberists, i think they’re poetry set to music. the emotionality of their work paints vividly felt, but subtly shaded sentiments. [...]
Tags: admin, missing limbs, pain, poetry, ruminations, women
NAGA, the search for connection and why pain is good
In 17 days and 8 hours the North American Grappling Association with be having its tournament in New Jersey. I’m at 158 right now… and ideally, i’d want to compete at 139. 17 days, almost twenty lbs, the problem is obvious. i honestly believe that i could do it, cut that much weight… if i [...]
Tags: jiu jitsu, naga, pain, philosophy, weight cutting